Long time no see

I want to say complain to someone, but I cant. So I will write here. Sorry if I make readers feel bad. But this place is my state where I can say what I am thinking exactly. If you don't want to be bad feeling please don't read :)

First of all, I dont want to think about a lot of things! I always think I really liked New Zealand life because I just think of English and "What I can do for enjoying". But I couldn't notice when I was in New Zealand. I thought I think I don't like New Zealand lif because I was thinking it was so boring life. But now, I really think it was so excited. Nowadays, I have to think of a lot of thinks like family, gramma, job hunting, part time job..... I know everyone has stress and everyone also think a lot of thinks. I just wanted to tell my feeling. I just wanted to say some thing. I know... Everyone has same. But I don't here anymore. It is annoying me. What's more, don't say lie. Im tired to change my schdule. You know, I am so busy. So I really don't want to change my schdule. I wanna hanging out friends at night. I don't want to study anymore. I want someone to support me.

Someone asked me what is your problem. However, I don't know so I have a hard. I don't know what should I do. Just I know that I should study more. I don't to lose anyone. Im sure I will lose someone on score, but I never lose myself. No matter how people think. I don't need anything until I win.
I will be patient. I need to be strong.